I think I figured out why I always feel so scared and enter into some sort of a trance state with mild palpitations when tutors ask me questions. I seriously lack the capabilities to think through and reason out. This stems from the fact that, perhaps, I do not understand more than half of the concepts taught to me, and I am really slow. The compensatory mechanism then is to memorise. I think I survived thus far only through memorisation and that is really bad. I must learn to drop that memorisation thing in me and start understanding everything. If not, I will die of a horrible death next time trying to dig out everything from my rather rusty database. But how to start?
On a sidenote, we celebrated Jasper Ngoh's 22nd birthday today at a fast food chain. Surprise, surprise! The manager heard us sing him a birthday song and whip out a very creative "cake" made up of 2 cheesy melts and some sprinkles of fries. How innovative and heart warming! We were all touched!
Is little things like these that make people happy! :-)
