Totally disastrous I must say. I think I totally am lousy at it and I should just dig a shithole and hide inside there for real.
One surgeon even questioned me today after I answered his question,
"That is for nurses, are you going to be one?"
That reminded me that I have never been able to imagine myself as a doctor all along. Even with all these fanciful attire and equipment with the labcoat, I think I look very much like an empty vessel.
