I am a highly neurotic person. At least I have a conscious state of neurosis and know that is it getting on my nerves. I realised that I have a little bit of different neurotic syndrome here and there with varying degree of severity. It ranges from obsessive checking, compulsive questioning, paranoia, anxiety, phobia, hypersensitivity and the list goes on and on. Sadly, I do not remember myself coming across as such a person when I was still a student. hmm.....maybe something was triggered off after that.....haha.....
Realised that the present course I am going through up north is like in a Survivor game. Though we are supposed to feel bonded but somehow, I feel that everyone is trying to outwit, outsmart and outplay each other. Maybe is my hypersensitivity again, but, I realised that I am constantly on my toes to prevent any forms of direct or indirect personal attacks. Fortunately, so far the mood has been a happy one....haha....
I met one of my secondary classmate inside. He is supposed to be some training instructor and me, a trainee. Somehow, I feel that the aura of superiority is constantly surrounding him. Or did I offend him back in secondary school days? Nevermind, I do not remember talking to him much back then anyway.
Talking about talking to people, there was this night when I was scrolling down my handphone list planning to talk to someone. Somehow, I just had no one to talk to and went to sleep....hmm....
