Just when I thought the attack by the crows was over, today came the attack by humans. It seems that I am not remotely close to being well-liked at this present work place. Or maybe, at anywhere. I understand that you can't expect everyone to like you, but at least you should try to like everybody. But, I feel kind of left out most of the time here.
Rigid and inflexible. Alright, this is what they make out of me. Well, it might be true but I am sure a certain sense of responsibility was the main contributing factor for such a perception. It is not nice to read newspapers openly in the public during office hours right? It is even not nice to leave earlier than the usual knock-off timing. Becuase of my disagreement with the above, I am branded as being rigid and inflexible. I mean, come on, there is a boundary bewteen rights and wrongs. It does not mean that by doing something against the right, you are being innovative or creative here. Well, I guess,
Friendless. Often, I am being commented as friendless....one even proclaimed that the reason I am on the friendster thingy, is because I have no friends, so I need virtual ones to fill up that space. This really saddens me a lot. But, what to do, sometimes, I really think that it is true...but how true is it? hai!!~
Pity. It seems to them that I am called out for movies or class outings because my so called "friends" are out to pity me. This is even worse than the above. But, I do agree that I have not been extremely happy for a very very long time except for the trip in August. But somehow, I never thought that it was a sign of pity that I was being invited.....hmm......
Anxious and rude. Well, perhaps I do have a temper....or some mood swings, but maybe I am just too up-tight or tense about work that I really want to see things done. Often, I really feel vexed when they complain about having bombs exploding as the work was either incomplete or sub-standard. I mean, why do you want to create boms yourself when you could have created peace? If you had put in a little bit for effort plus some urgency, I believe you will not be scolded for nothing lor.......
As I reflect upon myself, I realised that apart from the practical and the learning process at my workplace, I am not thoroughly enjoying myself. The worse thing, is no one is really actually listening to me except for my bolster or maybe Pikachu. Perhaps, I do not really want people to know......
